To be honest, I usually go to bed at night feeling like I have failed at this whole "stay-at-home mom" thing.
Not to the point that I am completely beating myself up, but to the point of feeling a little defeated.
Most days I feel like I probably would be much better at a desk job.
I would say that the majority of mornings I wake up and make a decision....either I will be a housewife first or a mom first.
I rarely feel like I succeed at both in a day.
If I am super productive around the house, I feel like I failed a bit at mothering.
If the kids' tanks are full, I look around me at night and feel overwhelmed by the mess.
And I think most stay at home moms have it figured out, but I just can't seem to figure it out myself.
So I can get down on myself sometimes and feel frustrated by it all.
I just can't find that balance between well-kept house and kids with most of their needs met.
But once in a while I get a day like today.
We woke up to snow and dangerously cold temps...the perfect excuse to stay in ALL DAY.
No school, no activities. I had gone to the grocery store last night.
And somehow I pulled it off.
I spent time with each child.
I did dishes and a couple loads of laundry in between.
I stayed on top of keeping things picked up.
And at the end of the day, the kids were bathed, fed and loved on.
I tucked them into bed and the dishwasher was running.
I spent a mere 15 minutes picking things up before I called it a day.
Nothing spectacular, but everything done sufficient.
I am not bragging here people. Just the opposite really.
I need to figure out why I can't do this regularly.
I am not looking for perfection.
But for tonight I will bask in the glory of a good day....and tomorrow I'll try to analyze why it was good and how it can be repeated!! :)