Saturday, May 25, 2013

What's up with me. (and some links to books.)

Four days of school left with my students. Bittersweet. I love this group of kids. They have been so great to work with. They have allowed me the freedom to try some new and crazy things in the classroom. Things that have completely altered the kind of teacher I am becoming. I could keep this same group of kids for years and be happy! But at the same time, I am so ready to get to summer. Not because I want to spend hours and hours by the pool, but because I can't wait to start planning for my classroom next year! Can't wait to change some things up. Plan on implementing The Daily 5 (for those of you who care!) and have been re-reading THIS BOOK.  It is rocking my world again. I love it! I love Tony Wagner. Such a insightful man with an amazing perspective.

I have been thinking a lot about who I am inside and comparing it with who I am on the outside. How I feel, and how I want to be perceived. My real hopes and dreams compared to what I think SHOULD be my hopes and dreams as a woman. I just downloaded THIS BOOK. Cannot wait to dig in. I've heard great things. I'm hoping it rocks my world as well. Sometimes I feel like my drive and determination needs to be suppressed. I try to hide it. Pretend it's not there. But since re-entering the workforce, it has been bubbling back up to the surface. And I'm not sure where the guilt comes from when thinking about who I am, but it's there. And it's strong. I keep telling myself I was created this way for a reason. And even if I feel like I'm in the minority, I don't think I am.

So I am going back to school to get my masters in Educational Leadership. I will start in the fall. I have been accepted into the program at UNI and I am so excited! It will take 2 years. I will graduate in July of 2015. See? Bubbling to the surface. :) And as I read THIS BOOK the other day, I came across the following quote that was attributed to Joan of Arc before she charged into battle: "I am not afraid. I was born to do this." Loved that. Highlighted, starred, bolded it. I was born to do this. I can feel it. I will not feel guilt. I was created for this. (I am chanting these things. Replacing guilt with truth.)

I think I have a touch of ADHD as well. As I looked through my bookshelf on my kindle, I had to laugh. Here is a sampling....
The Book Whisperer by Donalyn Miller
Alone on the Ice by David Roberts
Help Thanks Wow by Anne Lamott
The Great Gatsby by  F. Scott Fitzgerald
The Energy Bus by Jon Gordon
Life of Pi by Yann Martel
The Fault in our Stars by John Green

Happy long weekend.
May you find your sweet spot and own it. :)


Amy said...

I LOVE Daily 5! Seriously. My kids do, too. (Student kids... not kid kids. Although Sophie and Lawson would probably love it, too. Lawson got to do it in 1st grade.)

Love the quote, too, and can totally relate. Just read a blog post the other night about how "good moms" stay home with their kids and don't work. Blah. No guilt. I ADORE my kids and think I'm a pretty good momma. But you know what? I'm a pretty darn good teacher, too. I think I was born to do both. ;)

Chris/Stew; Brenda said...

Just back from PLC conference which also reaffirmed my LOVE for this profession. "I was born to do this"! I am so glad I have someone (YOU) to talk to about it all, and you just "get it".

Chris/Stew; Brenda said...

Just back from the PLC conference, and I get it... "born to do this". I am blessed to have someone (YOU) to talk shop with, someone who also just "gets it"